More than one side

Today started out as any usual Sunday at work, a few people milling the bar around not many food orders so the boss and I have a coffee and chat about this and that, how we are, the past week sales, how we can drive the business forward and general chit chat. I went back to my kitchen as I passed the bar staff they were talking about lingerie, I made some sarcastic comment. We got talking about general crap. Then we got on to relationships ( one of the bar staff has just broken up with her B/ F ) they all know about S and I and that I'm able to talk about it for the most part, today was different for some reason, some thing just triggered in me. I just looked at B ( the bar staff ) and said I miss S I really miss her. B gave me a hug and that was it I welled up and said I love S and I'd do anything for her, if I could have taken the cancer away I would have in the blink of an eye. I composed my self B apologised for some reason even though she did nothing wrong. We had the usual conversation if there's anything I can do I'm here for you if you ever need to talk. I said " I'm gonna let you into a little secret now " and told her about this blog and showed her the "OMG what a day " with that she's crying and saying omg I never knew, you always seam happy for the most part and you carry that with you every day it's a side of you that I'd just never thought of. So I explained this is why I have the Philosophy of "DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY, LIFE IS TOO F**KING SHORT".


Thought of the day - we might be all smiles on the outside, but we all hold a depth of thought and feelings that only we understand.