OMG What a day

It started off fun with the mini me's playin den building ( brrr freezing cold outside and raining) . Then to work I go. Any Normal Saturday is quite non eventful, this one all hell broke loose. It started as walked through the door I had AtG having his Drama ( with jazz hands) today's was something along the lines of if she doesn't get a disciplinary I'm quitting blah blah blah blah. Then J came in looking like what can best be described as death warmed up, I asked  what's up? ( I should know better) to be told PS tried to od last night my response was less than tactful ( I'm over her selfish shit but that's another tale ) I see life so precious after recently losing the love of my life to cancer. One thing PS has made me realise is I always knew I truly, madly, deeply loved S, I was also head over heels crazy in love with her. S was always the first person I thought of every morning and the last I spoke to every night and she was in my very though and dream. We may have been what felt like a million miles apart physically but we still cuddled up together every night. This may be me been crazy but I still talk to her I still cuddle up to her every night. I miss her more each day and I realise how much I love her, how much she means to me, how much of an impact she has in my life. S defiantly rocked my little world. Those that say "it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all" they didn't know S, they have no comprehension of what S and I had not even a little, not the slightest little bit, our love was unconditional, with out limits and without bounds,. It saddens me to think I've been there, I've felt it and I find it highly unlikely I will again lightening doesn't strike twice. People say you are heart broken it will get easier, I disagree I don't want it to be easy without her, my heart it's broken it's packed up and f**ked off, my heart stopped the exact second My S became My Angel.

My Angel S and I