I'm Sorry

I'm sorry to all those I have wronged. I know I am far from perfect and I have issues but that does not excuse my actions. I crave the one thing I fear the most and that's to love, I have absolutely destroyed some what could have bee amazing relationships because of this fear. Some will think this is a pity attention seeking party for one, you are all welcome to your opinions, but I'm just a boy asking to be loved p. There's a Chinese legend saying we are all created with an invisible red string attached to our pinkey and the other end is attached to the one we are meant to be with, I'm just hoping and praying that I've not pulled mine so tight its snapped.  I'm trying to lay my demons to rest and I beg for all of yours forgiveness for the hurt and pain I've caused, I never meant to hurt anyone I just self distruct and ruin everything. I will do anything to make it up to those I have hurt and caused pain. I am so truly sorry and hope we can reconcile. I miss the fun, the laughter, the love we shared and I mean this to everyone to poly I'm sorry I wasn't a better husband, to S and her family I'm sorry I hurt you, to my friends and family I'm sorry for ot been there as I should, and to the minis I'm sorry for not been there like a father should. Again I beg for your forgiveness and promise to do what it takes to correct my wrongs and be the man, the friend, the father, the love you all deserve