It started off as any usual winters morning in the UK. Defrosting the car cold enough to see your own breath.
Work just makes my brain itch ( I love that saying now ) what is usually one of our busiest days was eerily quiet. I've also come to the conclusion you can not use a psychic, telekinetic ability to place food orders like some try. You actually have to look and use a process of thought provoking elimination to determine whether something is required or not. ( you are NOT Jedi, you DO NOT have the force on your side ) or when you ask for a specific type of ale to make batter with because you know it's colour, flavour and how it reacts when cooked with and your brought this product that at best can be described as river water with added soil. ITS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE.
Sorry rant over
If you have read previous posts then you know when my mind is not busy it tends to wonder and just so you know my attention span is around 5 seconds less than a goldfish. Today's subject of choice was How do people see me?
My thoughts were. Some people say I have a dry sarcastic sense of humour, some people say I'm twisted and warped, some see kind, caring and compassionate and yet others see cold, shallow, argumentative, the list goes on and on. The truth is I'm or have been all of these at some point in time. It takes time for people to get down to a real understanding of any individual. The way I see my in a nut shell is a simple man, a passionate, emotional man, who just wants to be able to love and be loved. The only thing I really expect from anyone is for them to be truthful and honest with me and themselves.
As usual my thoughts turn to S and how did she see me. S was kind, caring, compassionate, loving, intelligent, Beautiful, gorgeous, sexy she was heaven to me and yet she had her feet firmly planted on the ground. Yes when it came to business she was the toughest cookie to crack but she was loved and adored by her vendors and clients. S accomplished things others can only dream of myself included. I really hope S saw me as I see me. She had this amazing ability to see through all the bs. Yes she saw me been jealous, protective and possessive, but I also hope she felt the endless love I have for her and I hope I was able to bring her as much happiness, joy and contentedness as she brought me, she completed me. We shared so much and yet so little time, we shared a love that's beyond your wildest dreams. S truly was my one in a million, my shooting star, my endless love. And now she's my Angel in heaven, My Diamond in the sky. I hope that's how S and people see me.
I Love you My precious Angel. Always xxxxxx
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